My Evil Wish

I had a teacher in my B.Ed course. Her name is Mrs. Neeti Dutta. I hate her and I know that she hates me too and she never misses an opportunity to let me know that. I am not a person who has a lot of role models but she is a role model of mine for she has taught me what kind of a teacher I should never become. She is the most depressing, hypocritical, immoral, wicked, artificial and hopeless person I have ever seen in my life. I have never hated any of my teachers as such but in her case I beg to differ. She doesn’t know what she wants but she bites everyone. Unfortunately, I could never express my hatred towards her because she had the authority of lots of my internal marks that can really affect my results and our examination system is not good enough to not let the biasness of teachers affect the marks.

My exams are over and my results will be out by August. Then I’ll have to go to each teacher of my department for getting the clearance papers signed. That will probably be the last day that I’ll have to see her but I won’t be able to avoid being in direct 1-1 contact with her. And that day the constraint of internal marks will no longer be there as the result would have already been out.

But I can’t collide with somebody just like that. I wont be able to say anything if she acts sweetly with me that day. I pray to God that she has words with me that day. Then I won’t spare her. I’ll actually let out all the frustration I have had because of her in the past 1-year.

This has been my wish since so many months and this possibility has been a very major driving force for me to get up every morning for college.

I wish this actually happens. I deserve this.

What is the most leading cause of death?

I believe the only answer for this question is ‘death’, neither smoking, nor drinking, nor eating too much, nor driving too fast. Even deadly diseases don’t cause death; they only serve as the medium for bringing the inevitable within reach.

When we say something causes death then it should mean that avoiding it would keep us alive. But that is not true. The truth is that we can only prolong our life by postponing death and even this postponement has a certain limit. Nothing can keep us alive forever.

This should provide as some perspective when dealing with the questions raised by Dr Ramadoss’s new proposals to ban films that has stars drinking on-screen. The justification for these kind of bans come from the notion that people die from smoking, drinking and obesity and it’s the government’s duty to prevent this from happening. And this is true within reason but in a world of competing priorities, we must ask as to what kind of life span extension should the state focus on.

If more films are showing heroes drinking then its because the meaning of alcohol has changed. We live in a world increasingly governed by pleasure and the relentless search for it. We drink more, we dance more, we eat food that stimulates our taste buds more, and we wear bright colours the make us happy. We listen to the throaty whisper of our senses over the high monotone of our mind. The idea of alcohol has changed from the dingy bars where the victims of bewafas went to a lifestyle thing.

Should no efforts be made then to tackle the problems created out of alcohol, tobacco and junk food? Of course the efforts must be made. But then it’s a choice that the people must be free to make. If they want to be seduced by the images of Saif Ali Khan eating chips, then be it. And it must be remembered that no matter what our over-concerned health minister does, we are all going to die one day.

It will make much more sense if we focus on living rather that be obsessed with not dying.